Me: “Thank you for coming.)
Buer: “You had a rough go of it with Paimon.”
M: “It was necessary.”
B: “It was/Allow me (to do the same). You worry about right and you worry about wrong. Why? Why should you when so many don’t?”
M: “I’m not interest in their right or wrong (in general). I’m worried about mine. I want this to be my last go-around (without resorting to the pretend independence of living in my own closed off world).”
B: “And why would that be ‘pretend’?”
M: “Because they’re still dependant on this system for the energy to create and sustain it. It will fade as time and energy are used up (if they aren’t attached)”
(He nodded)
B: “That is all. Welcome back.”
M: “Back?”
He was gone.
(I never got an answer for that question)
B: “Does it matter?”
(I knew it really didn’t. I was trying to stay on track. There was some teenage contention in the household. He told me to call him back, but I was not in a good place to learn at the end of the evening)
B: “You’re having a hard time picking something to change, to overcome.”
M: “Some of it still has value.”
B: “They do. What will you do?”
M: “I’m unsure.”
B: “Did you not change something last night?”
(I did. Instead of immediately calling out some intentional slights against, me, I said nothing, cooked dinner, and then went for a walk, leaving the others to eat without me. The food was put away by the time I was done.
My son came to me to ask why I had left and I explained that I was angry enough I would’ve said something stupid or in a way I didn’t mean it. I didn’t want to do that. I’m quite good at saying the wrong thing and the right time that can cut a bit deeper than intended.
He had been both the direct and indirect cause of the issues last night.)
B: “And so you taught him about walking away and coming back. Of standing your ground, but not wanting to argue just to ‘win’. It was a valuable lesson for you both.”
B: “You’re getting sick.”
M: “I seem to be.”
B: “Do you want help?”
M: “Do I need it? I am all for learning something.”
B: “You should use your stored Golden Light energy.”
M: “I could. Is that the best path?”
B: “Best? Hard to say. But I will help you. Bring my sigil into yourself. Let it whip all around (energy) like a tornado. It will push it out.”
M: “Thank you.”
B: “Seal up afterwards with your Golden Light energy.
He left.
Tonight, Buer came and offered to help a friend with some issues. Unsure whether it was psychological (stress) or physical. They went from a period of super low stress (well, the ‘good’ kind) to high almost overnight.
Having a similar thing happen,I sympathize totally. When they’d move us from Iraq down to Kuwait for 2 day “rest” periods of guard duty, I’d get all messed up. Migraines, anxiety issues, etc… There was too little stress and I’d normalized to being in Iraq.
Thank you, Buer. You waived off my offerings, but accepted some incense. I have not worked with Buer much in the past, so this is unexpected and certainly welcome.
Over the past few days, Buer has been slowly making it known that I have to reduce my stress or I’m not going to end up in a good way over time. We’ve had some amazing gains happen in my area of focus and when I leave in June, there isn’t anyone there to immediately have my level of experience where these gains are concerned. This has also meant I’ve put a lot, a tremendous amount of additional stress on myself to try to get things as ready as I can before that happens in 6 weeks.
It’s simply unsustainable.
Buer returned to me to let me know we were done with this week. Hail Buer and thank you for your mentorship and guidance.
