I recited her enn until I felt a super light (metaphysical) kiss on the cheek.
Me: “Thank you for coming.” (She nodded and acted like I should continue)
(I got interrupted almost immediately when my wife came into the garage to talk to me about a few parts of her day on her way to check the mail.)
Bune: “You can see why I wanted to wait. I would like some (incense). Sandalwood and that nice Jasmine (from India).”
M: “Of course.”
(She started to walk away and turned back towards me)
B: “You need to watch him.”
M: “Who, my problematic renter?”
B: “No, at work.”
She left. I will. Thank you Bune.
Note- Bune usually comes to me in female form and this is consistent for me over the years I’ve called on her.
Bune largely gave me a sort of “pass” for today, because of the stuff I’ve done recently. Truth is, I’m not sure why, but she was quite pleased. She asked for a tea light that had an “H” on it, likely indicating it was for Helios. I hadn’t dedicated it to him in practice, just planning. He didn’t care. So, I lit it for her. She indicated we were done for the day.
The Freewrite and the Meditation seem pretty similar, though they could be different to touch different areas. The push for both topics is to consider and cover “change” in general and potentially something more specific, like death or career change.
There’s a lot of change with my job. It’s part of the job. As things happen in the world, the priority of current projects or the replacement by new ones is common. We typically ay that every country in the world is only one nuke launch away from being the #1 country of concern in the world. While this does get an chuckle, it’s because it’s unfortunately true. Change happens all the time.
I’m more concerned with things becoming stale, both professionally and personally. I don’t do well “treading water” and this is the reason I am usually moving immediately to another area of interest and growth when one is completed. This doesn’t mean I don’t take breaks, but I don’t like to take many or for very long. I want to get as much meaningful work in during this incarnation as I can.
It’s not uncommon where I find myself with too much work to do and not enough time. Down time is also necessary to keep from burning out with my schedule. Sometimes I’m told to set things aside so something else can be done. Reasons for this is often vague or simply not given. A good portion of my tasks and schedule is given by those I work with, but the reasons why aren’t always apparent and this can be frustrating.
I was looking at the two suggestions for Invocation/Evocation 1 and I didn’t feel like doing them. I was going to hold off to see if those paths seemed better tomorrow or consider one of the other areas when I heard, “Come, have a chat with me.” Of course. I’m pretty certain I’m getting sick again, which is typical when I get sick and don’t take two weeks off of strenuous to fully get over it, but those are viruses, typically, and this was clearly a cold.
B: “I know you’re getting sick. And your birthday is Tuesday. Hope you can enjoy that cake. Let me give you an early gift (she will help me get over this quicker).”
M: “Thank you.”
B: “You’re overworking yourself. Yet, you feel you should do more. Do you know why you’re being overworked at the moment?” (I shook my head)
B: “You aren’t delegating enough.”
M: “Who am I supposed to delegate to?”
B: “Those that will work on your behalf.”
M: “I don’t understand. I don’t feel like I’m doing too much. I don’t feel like I’m doing as much as I used to.”
B: “Your friend was right.”
(She’s referring to a conversation I have had with a friend of mine when they pointed out that the intensity of the work I do seems normal to me and that means I don’t acknowledge the toll it can take upon me when I do it. I know she’s right, but if I can’t feel it, how can I know when it’s too much without getting sick?)
B: “By listening when you go to balance.”
(She showed me a sign recently I had noticed where I had swept my energetic body clean, but still felt a little tired and sluggish. I figured it was the remnant of this cold I was getting over and left it at that.)
B: “It’s more subtle than that, but you’re on the right track.”
Dreamwork:
Had some really strange dreams last night and I know the Bune was part of it.
There were a series of seemingly unconnected houses in businesses that actually were connected. They housed some sort of underground swingers club that was exceptionally casual. People just kind of dropped in and dropped out. If they felt like going to these other places attached to this network then they could use them. One of them was like a performance theater, another was like a stadium, a third was like a reenactment + outdoor museum or something like that. Some of them were just really old houses with secret passages (and of course tunnels) to connect these things together.
They all seem to represent the same space but yet it was physically different. Each hidden room area or hidden house if you will, the hidden interior of these places all had very distinct feels. Most had puzzles to them that had to be unlocked.
Most the people in this little club were of different ages, body types, and preferences. In one of them I was with (and still married to) my ex-wife, but in the other I was married to my current wife. Yet, the difference in time was one of a couple of days or a couple of weeks which is certainly not true in real life. Somehow they were passive players in this and I knew it was really somehow about me even when in the dream but didn’t realize I was dreaming.
I don’t know what the purpose of the dream was for. This was never made clear to me. All the puzzles, the styles of the room, or the styles of the buildings containing these rooms didn’t really matter. Things were clearly locked away and hidden from view. And me being the center piece suggests this applies to me. There are lots of things all of us keep locked away. The areas this dream touched on are just more to be aware of, I guess.
I went to crack the book open to read the ritual portion when I heard, “We are done.”
M: “Can I get the tablet ready so I can take this down?” She nodded and continued.
B: “I don’t want to give you a ritual you shouldn’t perform. Your wealth ritual the other night is working fine and I don’t want to interrupt it with giving another that could disrupt it. I also don’t want to give you a ritual you don’t need to try (and won’t use due to some of the others).”
M: “Thank you, Lady Bune.” She nodded.
B: “Some beer?”
M: “Of course.”
Hail Bune!
