This was part of a conversation I had a few weeks ago and it came back to mind today when I was sitting here wondering what to write about. It is an interesting position to be in.
How much “Power” do you need?
It’s an interesting question, because that really depends on a lot of external things, doesn’t it? What one wants or needs to accomplish. How complicated and difficult those things are to accomplish or at least influence. There are as many variables as there are people that can influence it and that….seems like a lot when you work on larger scales than standard daily life.
My friend only needs enough influence to make things go their way here-and-there. For larger things, they can ask an entity for help or ask someone like me.And what do I need it for? Not sure, to be honest. I’ve asked that this be my last incarnation and have been working my ass off to help ensure it happens. Hecate has been curating my experience since she pulled me onto the path and has kept me busy with that work to help me reach that goal.
I can’t tell you how much I need, but I can say what I do with what power I have. Influence campaigns for someone at work or school. Doing “my part” with international events. Requests and workings to bring my view of Justice on those that I feel are deserving. Exercises to build up the energy body and stores. Acting as a protective third party in disputes (real or imagined). Helping to rebalance the land when I feel disturbances.
Most of this happens when I feel it needs done and get a nudge that I should assist. I’m not here to save the world and it requires more Ego than I have to think I could. I typically aim to do “my part” and then some. If I don’t get the result that I want, I ask those I work with to help make me stronger in that area and, eventually, I find that the other work I do for them or on their behalf seems to feed into that or an adjacent area that helps me “level up”. It’s a cyclical event.
I did briefly chase power, raw power, similar to the “excessively emotional magic is change” crowd. While it does amount to some gains, the growth slows when actual change is needed, rather than slightly different versions of the same emotional experience. It can also make it more difficult to let go of those trauma-induced emotional wells to heal when those are the source of the emotion they use for power. That need to feel more powerful than those events can start a cycle of revisiting and never fully clearing out those traumatic well sources from inside ourselves. That’s a horrible way to live. Between a really bad childhood full of abuse and then Iraq, I could’ve lived in the cycle for the rest of my life, if I had continued that way.
How much power do you need? Still depends, doesn’t it? I would encourage anyone still reading to consider using and experimenting with external sources of power while healing any traumatic wells of your own. Make the switch, so you don’t have to keep that cauldron bubbling to try to continue to be more powerful than those past experiences that made you feel powerless. You may find you don’t need as much as you think.
