I’ve had an interest in the current of Maergzjirah for quite some time. Usually, the excessive drama produced by the “official” religious arm of it, called the Cabal, has been enough to put off genuine study of it. For those not in the know, there’s an excessive amount of it that seems to resurface every few years. No thanks. Trailer park drama can stay there, as far as I’m concerned.
But I’ve heard the call or at least couldn’t ignore the nudges that way. I have read some of their materials in the past and wasn’t impressed. I’m still not and am within the last few pages of the Black Scriptures (again). Frankly, I think a lot of it is a sort of competition with Lovecraft for scene setting, desperate edgy desire for achievement, and the actual substance that’s worth something.
And yet I’m delving into it in the next 30 days, if I can hold off that long.
I do know why, in some sense. I alternate between lighter and darker currents naturally as a way to maintain mental stability with the workload I put myself under magically. It’s also an effective way to ward off some of the more negative repercussions of darker practices heavily involved with Death, Destruction, and Decay energies when you start wielding larger amounts of them than a simply little emo-fueled ritual with your pinch of poisonous herbs you’re trying to keep your tears from ruining.
While I’m not a fan of how preachy Josephine McCarthy is, she is right that there are tangible effects on the body one substantial amounts of energies are channeled and used in ritual. Flip-flopping between current and a daily hygiene regime substantially help. So does not directly bringing in more of the energies through you when you’ve met your limit, but that’s a different topic.
That’s not to say I check out of my previous currents and work. I still very much work with those energies and entities when appropriate and for growth moments. Starting in the Maergzjirah current will be another growth opportunity and I have some ideal of how it will start.
Because I’ve been seeing either those entities or their emissaries more frequently since deciding to. The most flagrant was today, when I saw one of them walking towards me from about 15 feet away behind a mesh outdoor curtain. THIS was why I said “if I can hold off that long”. I missed the New Moon yesterday and even if I hadn’t, my tools weren’t properly readied.
I’ve “known” which two towers or at least feel I do. I’ve been feeling pushed towards them. One makes sense, the other doesn’t. I’ve worked with the Shadownomicon before, so darker entities and similar aren’t something I’m unused to. There’s a cold, dark comfort I find in shadows, even if there’s fear. I’ll keep you abreast. I believe this is my primary Tower, from what I can discern. To be clear, I am NOT approaching this like I have experience with this Shadow current. That feels like a foolish thing to do and my risks are typically the calculated sort, not foolish sort.
The other is that of Pain. Which makes sense in both literal and ironic ways. For the most physical tower (by description), it’s ironic that one with a broken body (from Iraq) would be called, but there are other areas I know I will get into. I am known for pursuing Justice and Vengeance, both by my character and by the “charge” of those I work with in areas they care about.
Again, I will be approaching this as a newcomer for the most part. The spirits will tell me what’s most important and given the increasingly obvious signs, I suspect that this behavior will continue and/or increase as things progress.
For those looking for non-Cabal-related Maergzjirah resources, this u/RedDragon87 is a former member of the Cabal and runs the Infernal Academia website.
Finally, I’ll leave you with one of my favorite songs that seems related in spirit.
