Mostly some thoughts on where this is at and how I plan on proceeding. I know some won’t approve, but I’m adding a little theatrical effect…hopefully…when the day comes. Here is today’s entry. Be mindful that the more significant ritual(s) won’t happen for another 13 and 27 days. There are some things I have to work out for them to be successful.
This will NOT be a daily log, which would be boring and clutter up the blog. But this is today’s entry:
24AUG25
I know I must work with the Maergzjirah current, but missed the timeframe to start on the New Moon (yesterday). The tool ritual water isn’t ready, which means the tools aren’t ready. Which means the ritual can’t be done. (Well, it can, but we’re trying to behave here).
I find the tool naming a bit silly with the amount of rituals I’ve done over the years in different paradigms. But do understand why others may need it. It IS a way of creating a focused construct that can assist and amplify its use over time. Instead of a passive collection system, like an area crystal soaking up excessive or extra environmental energy from ritual, it’s an active version that makes it much more profound in the same timeframe.
I will use my existing baking stone as an altar (as I already use it to do my rituals on it now), but am torn between a mace or an athame. I have a piece of Pearl Harbor driftwood that I collected that looks like a mace. I plan on using sterile lancets for blood draws (“finger painting” as I call it). The athame is more for effect at that point. I don’t need it for spirit control. I have several suitable knives & small swords. Undetermined.
Black Scriptures page 44 – “should you need to put down an unwanted visitor; in the flesh or in spirit“. THIS is the type of edgy Dark Lord style that obscures the real message. Nonsense and this was likely written from the comfort of an internet cafe or safe apartment. /rant But speaking of Dark Lords…
My chalice will be the Death Eater goblet I got from the Harry Potter exhibit in Philadelphia a few years ago. While I have used it, I started with the Demonolatry world and was doing partial possessions from a few months after being called/kicked in the ass by Hecate to get in gear. They taste it through me. Or it is poured into glass containers for those I don’t let in. But, a chalice is called for, so a chalice will be used. It’s reasonable.
The Circle of Arallah on page 44 looks interesting. Rereading to figure out where everything is supposed to go. I remember having some confusing in the latter 130+ pages when a spirit is in a spot I thought the altar was in.
The 9’x9′ circle is doable in the area I’ve chosen. They say it’s supposed to be made of flour, silver, or iron dust. But I’m going to go a bit theatrical here and do it in chalk. It’s partly practical. There’s a WICKED wind that flows through this area daily. I’ve been using 90 SPF outdoor cloth to try to mitigate it. You can see it in the next few photos. Don’t judge the clutter. Still figuring out what I can put where with the wind and am still unpacking. Anyway, here are two shots from the two sides of my ritual space subjected to the wind.
So, the wind sucks. Which means I have to figure the candles out. Now, are candles really necessary? Errr…sometimes. I typically charge them with a shit-ton (genuine unit of measure) of energy before bleeding on them and then oiling them so the blood offering doesn’t flake off. THOSE candles matter in a sense. Actual OFFERING candles. Not wasted bits of “wax”.
Focal candles matter less, depending on your skill and ability to achieve the same thing without them (like every other component – yes, there are caveats). Most of the candles with the rituals in the Black Scriptures are for theater or emotion response. The “psychodrama” of ritual, which I usually refer to as the “spectacle of ritual”. It IS said in the Black Scriptures that these become less and not needed over time and that’s where some of us have been for years, but it’s nice to hear echoed back.
I’m quite excited in a way. The Taoist spirits I was working with had me stop “cultivation” months ago. My daily mantras to Kali will continue, as will my attunements for Pele. But it’s been a few years since I’ve gone down truly dark paths. I do miss it.
More like a yearning, just as a few years in it will mean I balance it with the lighter cultivation. Maybe. I know I cannot stay too long in “The Light”, as it isn’t my path. Neither is a sole path of darkness. Talking energies here, not personality or dogma. And while I do claim to be a Taoist and match this with my practice, I cannot deny that I largely stand in conflict – of dealing Justice, Vengeance, Darkness, and Bulwark activities – while the majority of the rest of my life is balanced, rewarding, and successful. I can see how these would be at odds, but it’s me listening to my Path, as far as I’m concerned. Spending too much time doing only warm and fuzzy work tends to cause one of my spirits to kick me in the ass and tell me to get busy with the above-mentioned topics. Not in some “make them suffer” way, but in a “rectify this as best you can at your discretion” way.
And that Path is leading towards this current. I will not be doing the blood pack, as I’ve been told not to. But the dedication will be done. After all, is a Dedication not also in Pele’s Grimoire? I WILL be listening heavily to (mainly) Hecate as I go about this change. Hecate refused my worship so many years ago, as I thought that was what she wanted. I won’t worship another.
But I can serve. I have and I do. And I will.
Also posted here after the scheduled posting on this blog:
https://theoccultcorner.com/public/d/141-norse900s-maergzjirah-exploration-journal/4
