I did a video earlier about moving and the steps I was going to take as I prepare to move 4,000 miles away (again). It’s mostly an emotional reaction to seeing some of my most important ritual spaces basically bare. It was hard putting Hecate’s statue away, wrapping it up… She was the first entity to contact me in a way I couldn’t ignore, in Hawaii, where I’m moving back to. I will be moving around 15 miles from that exact location.
I still remember my fear, my uncertainty, as I realized this was a Goddess, which I never believed in and wasn’t raised with. With this was the knowledge that she wasn’t going to go away and I had NO FUCKING IDEA what to do.
I was scared. I’ve always admitted that. I’ve been under her aegis ever since as she’s nudged me to move ever further outside my comfort zone, it seems.
She left it up to me – let the movers bring it back to me in a few months or mail it to myself at my new (rented) place.
It’s not a trick or a test. I don’t need the idol to feel HER, call on her, or any of the others. My practice, in this area, is built upon relationships. Almost all practices are, whether realized or not, but mine is consciously understood. It’s part of my practice. Just like in real life, transactional relationships have their place. If it’s much more than that, then I start building a relationship. I was taught this by many, but the first was Hecate, the second Leviathan, and a third was Belial. I believe Abaddon was next, then Pele. My grimoire for that time period was destroyed, unfortunately.
I can feel her now, yet, it makes me nervous to pack up her statue. I do find it a bit amusing and chuckled a few times over it. It seems like such a school boy, teenage thing, yet I’m 46 and fully cognizant of all of it. I don’t interact with her consciously on a daily basis. There’s no daily or weekly dependency going on in the traditional sense.
It’s that things are SERIOUSLY changing when I have to move my Hecate idol and moving that idol, $35 on Amazon, iirc, means LIFE is changing. I think it’s coming to a head because almost ALL of the loose ends are tied up and I travel 4,000 miles. Movers are coming to start packing on the 5th, which is why I packed my most sensitive objects today (25MAY24) in between getting the house ready to rent out.
There was a lot of stuff to burn. This is probably my last real fire for several years. Here, all of the sensitive stuff’s been burnt.
I did make an offering, of course. ~75 pieces of ancestor money, incense mix (copal, myhhr chunks, Frankincense), and herbs (wormwood and mugwort). I burnt a lot of 2012-related Chinese New Year themed stuff. I burnt around 6-8 paper and wood fans. Hel, Zhao Gongming, and Hu Xian each got around 2 to distribute to deserving souls. I vaguely offered some of the other things I burnt, but didn’t do it “formally”.
Noticably absent is gold ingots. I simply didn’t have time. I have 12,000 gold ingots to fold for a child that died within the first six months of life. I don’t know the birth date and time, so 12,000 is the minimum. I’ve already done several thousand for this child, but would have to go back through all of my published and unpublished videos to tally the exact amount I’ve already done. There may actually be time, but I won’t have the calligraphy stuff to make the formally offering. In all honesty, it’s a bit moot, since I’ve already put some towards.
Well, sounds like I know what to work on. I’ll have to figure out how to burn the ones I finish. Doing more than several thousand a day is rough when working, but the movers will be here the 5, 6, 7, and 10th. Guess we’ll see.
