I’ve slowed my pace of blog entries, articles, and other platform videos, just as I’ve reduced my forum(s) interactions. Simply put, I’m reducing my non-mandatory interactions to balance both my magical and non-magical lives. Magic still happens, but the pace of non-magical requirements and stress has increased significantly and I have to meet those current demands to enable me to reestablish a baseline and…then produce more magic.
Take the last few months. There have been substantial requirements levied on Federal workers, unnecessary stress that solves/produces nothing, and that’s on top of an already stressful job. This must be accounted for and simply ignoring it can’t happen. No amount of delusional “happy thoughts” thinking will remove the work that has to get done. The Department of Defense can’t sleep on the job and neither can those of us that work within it.
This has meant a reduced output, but not at a 1:1 level. There are other factors involved. One of them is that the topics being tackled are much more complex, requiring A LOT of energy, intent, and focus. Those requirements don’t always release with the spell, depending on the ritual and the way it will work. Some have a more rolling effects with rolling requirements. If you’re not doing anything like that, it may seem like an odd thing to say, but complex outcomes require more than one or two workings to get right and frequently have to have conditional requirements to trigger further actions. And what happens if you have to wait for something to trigger with a sentient portion of your ritual? It has to be fed over time.
For anyone doing anything but simple spell work, there’s gold in there. But it’s gold that needs to be practiced and experienced to get it more fine-tuned – both in all of those individual components and in their combination/integration. Consider it, if you want more complex, more conditional outcomes. For those that need some nudges, consider constructs that direct and trigger. OR realize that your ritual is a construct, approach it as such, and build it into the outcome equation.
BAM! Double gold, one post. Let’s get back on topic.
The larger, more complex, and more consequential your rituals are, the greater the odds of developing fatigue that could spill over. In fact, the greater the odds that entities will interfere with them also happens, but you have to achieve that level of scope and ability without it just being Ego and Delusion. Not only will workings fatigue you, but those you work with may, too. Toss on work stress and it’s quite the salad.
Why would those you work with do this? Many reasons. They may not just fatigue you, they may just scuttle or misdirect your working, causing you to expend the energy again thinking you need to redo or boost it. Some of my friends have recently heard me complain about this (again). I complain to fewer people these days, to spare the whole. It happens, but why?
Lost of reasons. One is that the outcome will produce an effect that will trigger an backlash against that which you’re casting for. Places like the Middle East are my example for this. There are SO MANY forces at work that sometimes your effect will simply enable something else that is worse. I say ‘simply’, but nothing there is.
There are so many forces that it is difficult to make headway on broad, large goals. I don’t have broad, large goals. I typically have precise, narrow band goals that I can measure. Why? Because there are too many ‘Master’ and similar magicians running around that claim credit for every beneficial action (ignoring the negative) that cast for nonsense like “Peace in the Middle East” and similar. When anything happens, the delusion that they were the major cause sets in and now they continue to not realize that they are mediocre with talents in a few non-related areas.
Please don’t be that magician. Back to the topic.
Another reason things get squashed is because they sometimes need to bring you back down to reality. We can be powerful, change the world around us, change the world around others, but a hand wave or two and that power disperses or is simply ineffective. While this may seem like a slight (I have certainly taken it that way), sometimes it’s to remind us that there are other powers and intents at play and we need to keep that in mind to keep our influence in perspective. This is especially important in the more left-hand leaning paths that prize individual ego, competition, and Will. Nothing wrong with it. I tread both paths, but they will smack one down for it. It happens in the more RHP paths I have interacted with, too, magically and not. Those watching over our paths can interact with it. Typically, it means they help us get started and grow. Sometimes, it means they smack our hands and give us lessons.
The last I want to cover is this – burnout. As much as we value them, that relationship should be reciprocal in many ways. They can sometimes use our “agency” or “authority”, we use their resources, wisdom, scope, and relationships. We’re less useful towards their goals if we burn out. Some would say that they want the offerings an trinkets more, but not in a genuine relationship with a powerful entity like Hecate, Belial, Pele, or Abaddon. I said genuine relationship here, not worship. Long-standing relationships built over time. They can tamper your fire to prevent you from burning yourself out. They shouldn’t be taking from you (like a parasite) in these moments.
Let me relate.
Being exhausted from work isn’t new. I’m typically mentally spent by the end of the day. I believe in my job and what I do. But it comes with significant stress that doesn’t end when I leave the parking lot. It never will.
So, Pele’s Grimoire 2 gets done in spurts, rather than a slow, steady stream of progress. When time has passed, I send a feeler out to Pele to ask if I had missed anything. I typically get impressions back showing me expected progress, signs to wait for, signs to rest, and signs to get my ass back into gear. Of these, the “signs to get my ass back into gear” is the least used.
Some of this is due to the nature of my work with Pele. Pele’s Grimoire 1 or 2 isn’t about speed running to gain skills or useful spirits. That can happen, for sure, but it’s a path of progression. A path of progression that I ALSO MUST WALK. Do I have the energetic skills? Yes or I learn them when revealed. The same as the reader, but it takes longer, as I have to have the changes made to progress, whereas the reader can gloss over it and not reap those benefits.
That progress can sometimes take time. As stated in my Maoshan threads, I’ve been doing the Golden Light ritual for…probably two years at this point, nearly daily. I take the cultivation from Pele’s Grimoires the same way. What am I doing now? A Fiery Grounding exercise to help burn out unhelpful energy and ground me in the “now” I learned when I was at Kilauea’s latest eruption with spouts that hadn’t happened since the 1950’s.
What also happened at that live eruption? Communing with Pele in Kilauea, bringing the live eruption into me (more fire than earth direction) and further establishing her energies as one that has accepted her Line in the Josephine McCarthy’s The Work of the Hierophant vein. This type of work is pretty transformational as a conduit, but not in a exclusive way by any means. I am not gatekeeping that line or path. But, being me, I will establish more of that path as time goes on. The path started with Pele’s Grimoire 1 and continuing as I’ve been called on to deepen my relationship with her further with PG2.
And this results in spirits pushing me off from doing as many workings as I normally would. Most get into magic when they’re young . I am not. I’m just over 45 now and have scars from my time in Iraq. Truth is, my personality would’ve burnt me out a long time ago without the intervention of the spirits. How much FIRE can you take? Direct fire, raw from the Earth, not some little candle on your altar. It takes time to adjust without major ill effects when you access it directly. I was asked once by an exceptional clairvoyant how I could stand having that much Death energy around me with the link to the graveyards and wandering spirits (that I still keep).
I worked up to it, listened to the spirits interested in my health AND cultivation, and this is the result. I would encourage those working with similar elements to take the same approach. And if your spirits don’t condone it, consider finding others that will. I may be willing to help – time and resource dependent. But that should be a more nuanced term now.
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